Little by little, I’ve been upgrading Bibi, my converted campervan. Blackout shades, extra solar, little things here and there. And several months ago, I bought a whole box of soundproof panels and cut-to-fit blackout blinds at an auction to cut and place inside the middle and back windows so I could sleep better. Last night, as I opened her doors, I looked at that darned sound proof box. I have moved that heavy thing in and out of Bibi for months because I “knew” they were too thick, too hard, too much.

But this time was different. I approached that big, heavy box with curiosity instead of fear.

I opened the box, pulled one out, and looked at my back windows. HEY - I thought - these aren’t THAT thick. These may just fit! I did some quick on-the-cuff estimations (no ruler, just intuition lol), trimmed a tiny edge, and BAM. Perfect fit. I slipped it in place like it was made for that spot.

I laughed out loud!

Here’s the thing: In my healing sessions lately, I’ve been exploring fear. The kind of fear that keeps us safe and small. The kind that subconsciously runs in the background and convinces us to sabotage our own voice, our passion, our destiny.

And let me tell you…nothing is as frustrating, make-me-want-to-bang-my-head-against-a-wall frustrating, as knowing you have potential and a specific destiny, yet being unable to access it because of what’s going on subconsciously inside you. But you don’t know what’s going on subconsciously on the inside of you. Frustrated doesn’t begin to cover it. Been there? Ya, me too.

Sure, fear kept me safe. But it was also like a fungus creeping through my mind and body. You know the kind: the little fungus that withers everything in its path until one day you’re like, “HEY. You ate my plant. You ate my crops. You ate my potential!”

And yet, we continue to embrace the fear, because we still don’t know what to do to get rid of it. FRUSTRATING. INFURIATING!

I’ve been shifting that. I don’t automatically shrink back anymore, but I meet fear with curiosity:
👉 What if I explored this instead of dreading it?
👉 What if this actually works?
👉 What’s on the other side?

Here’s the thing: Fear is not real, but our minds MAKE it real. Our minds are a powerful thing. Fear keeps us small, never realizing our potential. And it will always try to drive.

I’ve written before about moving fear out of the driver’s seat and into the passenger’s seat, saying that it was OK that fear rides beside you but never to let it drive. But you know what I did? After all this healing work? I kicked that asshole out of my car completely. No room. No way. No how.

It’s not crazy that those panels that I dreaded and had convinced myself would not possibly work, fit just like a glove into my back and rear windows. Because I embraced the situation with curiosity -

And now, I’m going to sleep so good!

When you do the work and really explore why you do what you do and uncover the layers to get to the core — the Universe meets you where you are.

I’ve kicked fear out of my vehicle. And do you know that bastard tried to come back?! Yesterday I woke up to a text: Hey! Any chance you’d like to come down South this weekend to do a firewalk?

Immediately, I lit up — YAS!
And then almost immediately, that asshole was back: This isn’t possible! What do you think you’re doing! Text back and say NO immediately!

And I kicked the bastard back out.

So, you know what I’m doing today? Packing to head out to a firewalk, that’s what I’m doing!

More to follow. Y’all, I’m walking over a bed of coals with my bare feet! Art and stories to come!

I LOVE YOU. 🔥❤️
Debby

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